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1:31 a.m. - 03.31.05 1. Tell me the story of Grace. How you got pregnant, what that felt like, how you decided what to do, etc. I also want to know what its like to be preggy. Gross me out with some details. Alright here goes: I was 18 and at a party while in college in Abilene. I met this guy who was in the Air Force and we hit it off. We ended up driving out to the lake and having our own party in the backseat of his car (I was a slut, a drunken slut. Not proud of it but it�s the truth). I actually didn�t find out I was prego till I was 5 months in because I was still getting a period. It wasn�t a normal period but I was still getting it so I didn�t think much of it. I think deep down though I knew that I was and it freaked me out so much I refused to think about it. When I finally admitted that yeah I probably was, I was in town visiting my parents for the weekend. I felt her kick while we were at church and pulled my mom out of the service to tell her. I figured she couldn�t kill me in the house of God. It went over better than I expected. I was really confused. I wasn�t even 19 yet at this point and I was 5 months along. He was of no help and signed away his rights before she was born. I decided to place her for adoption because while I think it�s a woman�s choice for abortion I could never actually do it myself. I had a family all picked out by the time she was born but when they showed her to me and I finally got to hold her there was just no way I could possibly do it. I was in labor for 15 hours and ended up having a cesarean because I wouldn�t dilate. She was 2 weeks late and I had to be induced. Mind you her birthday is July 20th and it was a really hot summer so I would have gladly cut off my left foot for her to be out. I worked up until my due date and then I spent the next two weeks sitting in the pool at my apartment complex trying not to die from heat exhaustion. When I was in the hospital before they had decided on the C-section I was crying and I kept asking my mom to take me home. When they finally gave me an epidural I was having contractions one on top of the other so I didn�t even feel it. Apparently the needle was huge. They broke my water and my OBGYN came in every hour to shove fingers up my hoo-hah to see how far along I was. That was the part I would never get used to in all the doctors visits, when I was going every week I just dreaded that. I did become an expert at scooting my ass to the very end of the table though. When the doctor broke my water I almost threw up. It felt so gross. Like I�d lost all control of my bladder. Then they had to shove this electrode up my hoo-hah to get a reading on Graces heartbeat because she kept moving away from the one they put on my stomach. While I was in surgery I was kept awake because if they put me out she would be out as well, they asked if I wanted a mirror so I could watch her being born and I told them no thank you I�d use my imagination, I had no desire to see my innards. When they held her up over the cloth she was covered in goo but she was the most beautiful thing I�d ever seen in my life. Tomorrow I�ll post birth pictures. Okay that�s all I can really remember right now. I�m sorry it�s so long winded and I�m sorry it jumps around. 2. NAme all your jobs. From first to last. Then say favourites, and most hated and why? Do you have any funny boss storys? First job was at Saks 5th Avenue as the fitting room attendant. Then it was Neiman Marcus in credit collections, Verizon as a Customer Service Rep (while prego), A day care, A Portrait Studio, As a telemarketer (I worked there for a total of 4 days, and three of those days I was in training), Then as a temp to different parts of Verizon for the past three years. My favorite was the portrait studio, if I had made more money I never would have quit and then my other favorite would be the last job I had with Verizon, not so much for the job but the friends I made there I hope to keep forever. My least favorite was the telemarketing job, I hated it so much I never went back. My funny boss story involves this guy we�ll call D. He used to tell me all about when he would lure women back to his house by saying he was a photographer and then he�d have his dirty way with them. Or when he would make like he was having oral sex with his hands and think I thought it was funny? Sexy? Cute? I don�t know but it was none of the above and frankly disgusting. Oh yeah and when my last boss wore sweat pants and I got to see his wang. That ruled. 3. It says you dropped out to have your baby. Will you go back to college. What degree do you want and why. What affect does not going to college have on your life? I did drop out of the first college I attended. I went back to school two years ago but I had to quit again for money reasons. I am now trying to get financial aid so I can go back. I would like either a degree in graphic design or English. 4. What brought you to diaryland? is that the same reason that keeps you here? What is your favourite part of dland. Do you have a few favourites that you read? This guy I once new told me I should try it. I thought it was stupid and didn�t plan on becoming so attached. My favorite part of diaryland is the other diarylanders. It�s the only thing keeping me here. I have a ton of favorites I�d list them all but I�d end up leaving someone off and feel bad. 5. What is your biggest fear? is this a real fear, has it happened before. TEll me about that. if not ellaborate on your favourite scary movies, list 6 of them. My biggest fear is being alone. Not that I want to be surrounded by people all the time but that everyone will suddenly think I�m not cool or I�m not interesting and they will want nothing to do with me. That scares me. I don�t like to feel like people I respect or want as friends dislike me. My top 6 favorite scary movies are: 1. The Exorcist 2. 28 Days Later (It�s political and zombies are my favorite horror movie accessories) 3.Signs 4. Pet Cemetery 5. Psycho 6. The Shining Now its your turn: Whew. Kuwait next entry. I swear.
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